WEARY!

Do you ever get weary?  You haven't done anything in particular, but have done everything.  No heavy lifting, no hard work outside, no unusual running here and there, just everything.  The definition is: physically or mentally exhausted by hard work, exertion, strain,etc.; fatigued; tired: weary eyes; a weary brain.  I am weary!  I am looking for that view at the top.

It isn't the big things - it is all of the little.  I am no spring chicken and it takes all the energy I can muster to just get through a daily routine.  I have never had a lot of patience, but it is getting worse, the older I get.  I was talking to the lady that sits with me at church and she was saying she wished she could work in the nursery as she loved to take care of children.  Not me.  My daughter was telling me her schedule yesterday......take girls to school, pick up one girl, take her to volleyball, pick up other girl, take her to soccer, then turn around and go back and pick both up, then to the grocery when she got off work. Couldn't do it.

I hate to even admit it, but since I am baring my soul, the little things that Jim requires of me during a day, makes me weary.  I get up early in the morning to have some quiet, me-time.  Then it begins.  He isn't doing well at all, and I can see him fading right before my eyes.  I cant stop it, no matter how hard I try.  I open bottles for him, as his strength has left him, I pick up the clothes he has thrown on the floor, both in the bedroom and bathroom; he has a clothes basket in both places, but misses.  Then I pick up the tissues, candy wrappers, mail, etc. from the floor around his recliner.  He has a big round table on one side of the chair, and a waste basket on the other - he misses both. And on the day goes.  I pray every morning and every night, and through the day when I stop long enough, to keep me 'going', so that I can take care of him.

I am weary tho!  Do you relate in some way?  Do you get weary in well doing?

Today I will take my granddaughter to another volleyball game.  The game is at 4:30, again across town, which means I go up on the mountain and pick her up from school, and down we go to the game.  I don't think I will stay for the whole match, that is if they have to play the full 5 sets. They played last night and won again, so they are 2-0 on this season.   I need to pace myself more or I will have another one of those 'attacks' that I had a couple of weeks ago....stress/anxiety.

Well, I can hear the walker clicking on the kitchen floor, so I had better get on my 'horse' and ride.  Wishing you a good Thursday.  Having my second cup......have you had yours yet?